Tell me I’m doing okay. Tell me that it’s an adjustment period. Tell me that it takes a while– a good long while- to hit your groove. Tell me that my kids aren’t going to wind up uneducated and jobless.
It has been a hard few months. I think, perhaps, maybe, my expectations were a bit unreal. It may not be possible to move to an entirely new area and start home schooling without really having made any preparations. It has been a near constant struggle as we still settle in and find places for our belongings. It has been a constant struggle as the three kids aren’t accustomed to being in each other’s hair all day, nearly every day. I’m terrible at maintaining the house, cooking, cleaning– and I like things orderly. Not perfect and not always vacuumed and dusted. But, if there was a sliding scale of home disorganization, I would be to the left of center, somewhere between pigsty and organized chaos.
I miss our support crew back home: the moms I was close with, the moms I knew in passing that were there to commiserate with. The kids miss their friends and their routines. The familiarity too. Another reason home schooling isn’t going as I’d expected it too: we are trying to get out and meet new people and are getting to know the area. That has us out and about more but there is much less time being spent on academics.
I’m concerned they are “behind” (That word holds so much power if I let it.) So much so that it has me doubting the choices I’ve made to home school. I’ve even gone so far as to try and enroll my son in area Charter schools. We haven’t found a fit yet, but feel this whole messed up education system is– exactly. It’s messed up! Unclear. Frustrating. And one more thing I just don’t want to be consumed with any more.
I’m also irritated because I was curious about how mothers that home school balance their own lives. I put the question out in a group I joined. The answer I got: the parents include their kids in all things and interests that they have. If you are a mother/father who home schools and it hasn’t totally consumed your entire being– please! Help! How??